spca-rawks

Once again.

2006-04-27T02:25:00.000-07:00

Guess its only me and Anthea now.

I thought i might just wanna blog again, on this very blog that we created 2 years back with love and stuff, now its gone with our friendship.

We moved on and got to know alot more of other people, but still in my <3 somewhere, i know that the scap remains. i yearn for the return, but somehow its not going to do so as we all changed.

i wonder who else still visits this blog. :x except me and anthea, of course.

maybe next time, we can all proudly tell our next generations that " hey! you know. i was in clique last time and it was made of all my best friends. " and that how happy we were and how we stood by each other and all. How we had and solved conflicts.

Last but not least, How proud we were of our clique.

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<3 peggy. 27/4/2006

2006-03-14T09:24:00.000-08:00

Whoa gees, as usual, it's me, Anthea. Here to make a final post, and it's going to be pretty cheesy. I'm sure none of you would have expected this from someone as closed up and as anti-social as me, but hey, this is what I feel.

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It's 2006 and we aren't like we were, 2 years ago. As time passes by, it rearranges your life, yourself, and everything else. So yeah, everyone has changed. But we need to accept change.

We're all seperated now, everyone's in their own cliques and.. there's even hate against those who've changed. But then again, we shouldn't let hate run our lives. Accept the changes, and we can all move along. Sure, you may think it's hard hanging out with someone who's changed completely, but surely there's no need for hate? Besides, the world could be a better place without all that hate.

Even though it seems we all have seperated, I still hold each and everyone in this dead clique close to my heart, whether you've changed or not.
Looking back at the posts, it seems we all shared an unbreakable strong bond, just like, you know the theory of wear and tear. Yeah well, our bond held on tight, but eventually it wore and tore.

I still can remember how we met on the first day of school, how we picked a name for this clique, how we went out together, how we even thought of making S.C.A.P underoos, how we stood up for each other, how we supported and guided each other, and how we survived the ups and downs of our teenage life together. Of course, in every human relationship there's bound to be some conflicts now and then, and even though we did have really horrible conflicts, we all seemed to be able to sort them out well.

In this 2 years we've guided ourselves through mishaps and broken relationships, be it love, friendships or family, and among many other problems. We've seen the grey clouds and experienced the storm, but at the same time we've also had our fair share of the sunshine and green grass. Nothing in the world is perfect, no matter how much we try to perfect it, but being in this clique made me feel whole, made me feel happy, and it made me overlook the imperfections each one of us has. This is was true friendship, true, solid friendship indeed.

Looking back at the old posts we've made, it seemed that we were strong people and our bond seemed to be greater than anyone would have thought it to be. But now, we're just regular friends, the occasional "Hi" and "Bye" seems so shallow, is this really what 2 years of tough friendship has become? Even with the regular greetings and the big smiles, it seems that I'm/we're just smiling to strangers, shadows of our best friends, and that we barely know them. And at tables, we smile and wave, then turn back to our own group of friends, it all seems so.. Odd. Is this what 2 years of friendship has ended up to be, just smiles and greetings? I sure hope not, but my hope is futile.

Out of all the friends I've had in my 14-going-on-15 years of my life, I've always felt that this clique would last me till at least until I leave Christ Church. But these thoughts of mine have gone down the drain.

I'm not blaming anyone though, since I never made any attempt to bring revive the old clique. Anyway, it would be impossible as each of us has our own visions on what is "perfect", and well, hanging on to the past sihoulette of what we dubbed "our best friends".

But then again, I cherish every single moment we've had together, and I'm pretty sure I will do so for quite a long time, until I become old, wrinkly and senile.

I guess, the entire S.C.A.P clique is over, though I really don't want it to be.
I accept this, I accept this change, and I'm letting go.
There is no more hate in me for this long gone clique, no more wanting to shove myself to a corner and hide.
I love you all, no matter how far apart we've drifted.

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The hardest part of holding on is letting go, especially when you're holding onto something held close to you.

2005-08-08T03:38:00.000-07:00

nobody blogs here anymore.
but i still love you all.

happy birthday, singapore.

<3

MUCH LOVE ; ANTHEA .

2005-05-09T03:08:00.000-07:00

ANTHEA HERE!

i love you guys. :))
we should go on more eco-adventures together. :))
oh yeah. we still need to think of the design for our SCAP shirt. tralala.

detention.

2005-04-18T16:20:00.000-07:00

cool. we have gotten ourselves one week worth of exclusive detention class. :D

we are so loyal till that stage! what can i say? lols. xP

- rock on. lalas~

yours truly___________________________________________peggy.

true love?

2005-03-31T12:34:00.000-08:00

hahas.youu now wad gurls.i think euu guys are realli great fwens.alwaes standing up for each other.giving each other a helping hand.the bond seems tuu be soo hard tuu break.that hatred can turn tuu love.haas.oh wells.i dunno y i wana post this.but im realli despaired seeing soo mani of my frens falling intuu deep love pit.love doesnt seem like love whereas it's kips hurting that it pose a phobia for it in our lives.ive alwaes thot shedding tears fer ur loved ones ish a veh touching scene.but now i find it realli spastic.y shed a tear ova a guy that hurts ur hart and giving u unceasing stabs.im realli so determined nort tuh shed tears for my boyfriend or wadd.it's kinda dumb.im realli disheartened tuh see my sis crying every night,without fail.tho we're loggerheads.but i just feel soo sadd for hur.i dunno how tuh comfort her nor talked tuh her.but the sight of seeing her world breaking down portraits a thousand pictures of how relationships can cause conflicts.i have a voracious appetite for love[which i believe true love ish found one in a million].i wanna swallow all the fake love that they think it'll last.everyone that i noe ish foreva encountering *love* problems.wells.breakups are often caused by two person without mutual trust.if ppl cant even get thru this lil obstacle,i'd sae love ish just an indirect hatred.hees.i just hope s.c.a.p and my sis will survive thru this lil footprints in our life and live happily eva after.cos i love u gurls tuu bits and pieces.my hart just cant bear any imperfection when love cums intuu the picture.//takkaire gurls. <3

thanks! <3

2005-03-25T12:40:00.000-08:00

Hi. i am Peg larhs.

I really wanna thank you girls. all of you had styed by my side during my depression days. [:
All of you are really great friends. and i really treasure all of you all. I was very touched and saw that what REAL friends potraited from all of your actions. really thank you all. We aer okay now. let it be the last chance for both of us bahh. really thank you for your care and concern. [:

Contiune to rawk on. - P e g ;

2005-03-25T07:53:00.000-08:00

ANTHEA'S HERE. anyhow. peggy ar. it's okay. that's what friends are for, youknow. :D
p.s: i fixed the blog, peggy forgot to end some html tags. XD <333

2005-03-02T03:18:00.000-08:00

anthea is amazing.